process book learning journal 😌
I will rename the blog #
to something like "process learning journal by Attila Vajda", or something like that, is more suitable. At LCC IMI we wrote a process journal for each project we did, which is a nice thing to do in my opinion
Alright I changed the title! #
nice. I would like to keep writing this blog, which is a recurring theme for me.
My vision improved! #
I must have wrote about this in the previous post, but I am so happy for this that I will write about it again. After listening to a few podcast talks given by Ellen Langer, I put my screen on the highest resolution, and made the font sizes small. I also put the colors on monochrome. And I also change my distances from the screen, I move further away or I push the computer a little farther away.
Two things happened, when looking away from the screen I was surprised amazed at how colorful everything was. I also seem to have become able to take in more visual information. I looked at a plant for example, and it felt I could see the entire plant with the pot. I can see the pattern/texture of printing paper
I started seeing the little braidings on textile, on clothes I wear. For the first time in my life I noticed that there are patterns on my palm, the sort of fingerprint lines are over the palm, (and soles) and there is a layer of creases.
I noticed that our black cat Molly is not black! 🐈⬛ but she has tubby/striped patterns barely visible, and her fur assumes all sorts of shades like rusty, metallic violet, and silvery reflections, while she also has an undercoat of shades of light grey.
Something new that happened is that when I step into a dark room, or close my eyes in the evening I often see this very soothing dark color. For the first time I noticed that that dark when I close my eyes was like a distinct deep color. The neon-like layer of color I used to see with closed eyes have reduced. Earlier I read about a related phenomenon in a Norman Doidge book, that we canfocus on the darker areas we see with closed eyes, or put our palms on our eyes to shield light, and that there is a buddhist practice of evoking the color of the night sky.
I guess this has to do with mathematics learning, as I am learning about patterns. After all mathematics is said to be the science of pattern. In fact it is amazing for me how rich in pattern the world became. I notice cool patterns in sound, in movement, I don't know if I notice it in touch, but that's something to explore!
Looking at plants, I thought the variety of things must be the whole point of it all. How many ways can you be a tree. I never noticed this many colors in the world before, it's really awesome.
In mathematics the same pattern, how many ways can you write/express something? Maybe this is what is meant by it's not the solution, but the process "show the work". I see it this way, someone else sees it from a different perspective. Focusing on the process is a bit like tao. It's the arrow, the relationship between things. An element is a mapping.
mindfulness and mathematics #
two things for an empowering composite
something I learnt #
there are many of these small insights, or big insights, anyway I experience them as insights everyday now as I am recovering from schizophrenia, and in learning mathematics learning mathematics for recovery is powerful, I am often reminded that Barbara Arrowsmith Young used mathematics for recovery from learning difficulties.
Oh yes the #
you don't have to "finish a book", this was an insight for me I wondered how on earth to "finish" all these books of mathematics and computer agent suggested the perspective, actually the computer asked "what does it mean for you to finish a book?", and I thought well I don't have to finish a book, which means there are other perspectives, or approaches to engaging with books. Which was relieving, something like "I don't have to carry this weight anymore". I can read and reread books, and they are there throughout my life, and I can learn from them, and enjoy the many beautiful ideas. This seem to have removed a great deal of stress for me.
this connects to dissolving/transforming the #
competitive approach to things
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